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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 02:35

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

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And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

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She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Canadians went out of their way to help Americans stranded in Canada after 9.11.2001. Why did Canadians help so much the way they did? We read that Canadians don't particularly like Americans to begin with.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

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Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I waited trembling.

I never cut or harmed myself..

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Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I couldn’t, believe it.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

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This is soul school!.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

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She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Why do people hate fat people so much, even people who aren't exactly supermodels themselves? It seems like such a deep, passionate hatred, like they're offended by fat people just existing. Fat people didn't do anything to them, so why hate them?

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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Was to survive, this bastard.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

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Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

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He knew the spot.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Why does my vagina smell sort of fishy/musty days after sex when my boyfriend ejaculates in me? There isn’t any itching or burning when urinating, so I don't think I have BV. It just doesn't smell like me.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Would this be the day?

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Why is it common for guys to sleep with 10-20 women then marry a good girl?

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I think the readers, may guess!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Who then, do I blame.?

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

But, we were locked up after school.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

On the 31st of Jan this month .

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I have no regrets .

So whats the point in blame.

I was very sick at this time too.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Put me off passion for life!!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I was 9 years of age.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

She found it foreign!.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

And i lived it daily.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

It was going to be , some day.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

She loved him until the end.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

We all went to grammer schools

So, i spoilt her more .

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I was scared of men, in general

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I write beautiful poetry .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

What did i know ?

She wouldn,t have been !

I don,t even have a pension.

My life is so biszare .

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Especially a lifetime of it.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

My family never makes their pension either.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Why did i forgive my father ?

But it wasn’t much.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I was seconnd youngest,

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

But ive been too sick for many years..

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

We were not on the streets..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

All the time i was locked up.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I said to her

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

She was in good health!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

(And it was in our own minds.)

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I will be 64.

Comes on , in middle age.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

She married twice! .

One cannot live in the past .

Ive learnt so much.

When she asked me how she looked .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Im still living with it.